Monday, November 28, 2011


你會在哪裡 現在你叫什麼名

密封了勇氣 落空決心
我摀著自己 外面世界不安靜(我摀著自己 不安靜)
而心很確定 想聽你呼吸(我確定 呼吸)

Love 把心扔到海裡(Love 嗚嗚~)
刻上愛的字跡 時光帶我去有你的地方

漂流著一千年都過了我在海裡頭(在海裡頭)
有一種見不到你就不回去的念頭(的念頭)
旋渦中聽見耳邊的風微微顫抖
滄海桑田 黑夜白晝(滄海桑田 黑夜白晝)

我隨著時間的方向一圈圈打著轉(一圈圈打著轉)
你會不會找到我將要在哪裡靠岸(靠岸)
如果有一天 撞上一個小缺口

我怕 沉入海底

超爱这首歌的,是柯震东+陈妍希..说真的,他们两个好配啊!都不知是不是拍拖都要瞒着我.. 哈哈!在金马奖走红地毯时,他们可是十指紧扣!唉,如果是的话,就跟我说一声嘛,我很想知.. :(

最近真懒写部落格,反正家里的事务也挺多要我做所以顺水推舟,久久才更新~哈哈!家是闷,但很舒服..! :D

她跟我说,别想太多,所以我也没想太多,对她也冷谈了许多

,或许是件好事,不让自己再受伤害..反正在这时候谈恋爱好像没事么太好,毕竟我成绩烂透+明天政府考试,我续加倍努力..我可是没补习哒,我不信我不补习我就考不好,或许我太过独立了,或许一个人会觉得很舒服..我就是喜欢一个人.. :)

看看看!陈妍希太可爱,太漂亮了!我超喜欢这照片!28岁的她,简直可以在我班,走在我背后,用蓝笔刺我背后,叫我和她读书呢!娃哈哈!
过于沉迷这部戏了,本来想去看,可惜臭政府说18岁才能看,还要查身份证 :'(
没关系,我等网上去,拜托快点,我可是急死了.. :\

还有,祝你生日快乐给今天生日的人.. HAHA!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

100 RINGGIT.

I absent nearly two weeks. But today I had to present to school for RM100. Argh, I don't want. I want continue lying on my warm bed. Sigh. I can't prevent myself from the seduction of money. Haha. Actually, I'm a greedy boy. Greed in anything. How bad I am. Wake up early, chat with friend when arrived, spent my school day in playing UNO. That's the reason why I don't want go to school. Really boring, I better spend those time in studying at home than wasting time on this such game. If not for the RM100, I won't come to school. Nevermind, at least I can spent my last school day with my best friends. Chatting loudly, laugh like monster, play UNO and chess without any pressure. What a wonderful day. :)

I ain't perfect, not handsome, poor and stubborn guy. Ya, I should know myself well. But I still put more effort on this stupid thing. I never give up in something until I achieve that. So, I automatically hurt myself albiet I know I won't success. Am I hurting myself? More effort I put, more hurt may I get. Everyone will say themself ain't prefect, blablabla.. include me. Every humans have their imperfectness, no one is prefect. Please, don't say yourself like that. (Just for you).

I told my mum about my terrify result when dinner time. Really need a lot of courage. Finally, I do it. Luckily she didn't scold me like before. She just ask me go for tuition, I say no need, I want study with myself. I know she worried about me. But mum, you can relieve. I won't let you disappointed again. I'll do hard next time. :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

No title. @.@

I get my bad final result in this final exam. Huh, damn disappointed to myself. Firstly, I think I want to have some tuition class but I cancelled this plan. I still want to try study with myself although it is not enough time for me. I try to hardworking and not let myself feel disappointed again. Never envy others, try to make myself perfect. :)

My heart broken recently but I like another girl again. Am I flowered-heart? Sigh. Someone said, easily fall in love, easily forgot. Maybe that's right. Why the girl that I like always surrounded by a lot of boys? It means I need to compete with those boys that are higher standard than me? I loses the game one time and one time. I'm still continue to compete albeit I tired. Maybe my flirting skill too worst or what problem? I can't figure it out. Nobody can answer me. I'm confusing should I compete with other boys to get the girl or give up and become friend. Sigh again. Nobody can answer my question again. That's too complicated. I'm the person who easily get jealous, get mad if someone reply me late, emotional person. Woah, that still got a lot of my weak point, I just haven't write it out. Be my girl friend, it is a unfortunately for that girl. That also the one of the reason why I always fail. Should I continue? :'\

Ok. Stop here. Have a nice day include me. Hope so. :)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Ordinary Day

Long time didn't update blog. This few days, really don't any free time to update it. Times fulfilled with my activities and lazy.

What's your feeling if a person that you love but he/she like another person? That worst to me. I pretend to be strong in front of her, but I have the vulnerable heart just like the glass. Once you dropped it, it will be broke albeit you stick it back, it also has a deep scar on its body. Deep scar never cure completely, you only can use sticker to cover it.

I really don't want accept this as a fact. I try to lie myself this just a illusion for me but I know if I continue do like this, I will hurt myself deeply. I face to mirror, tell myself. Quit it! She messaged me, I don't have any idea what should I reply to her. I want her confirm aren't really want to accept him as her boyfriend. She keep apologized to me. I mad because of her apologize. I really hate her apologize. Gave me an irritating feel. Why she keep apologize? Not her fault, that was my fault. If I don't keep loving her, we may become a very good friend and my heart won't break again. Who can guess what you get or what you own in your life? Never.

I hope her happy forever. That's what I can do for her.




Sorry.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

该放什么题目好?

献丑了.. 帮我想想题目,如有错误,尽管批评... :)

我,名叫黄勇锦,今年十六岁,在大和园中学(高中四甲班)就读。不喜爱读书的我,对自己能够进入甲班真让我感到一丝的意外,或许是命中注定吧!上课就睡觉,老师在前面教书就与死党聊个痛快,简直把老师当成是透明的物体。所谓,恶有恶报,我班的班主任接到无数的投诉后,决定把我放置在远远的班角落,让我深深体验到孤独的滋味。班主任以为这种方式能让我乖乖地上课、听书,结果还是功亏一篑。毫不反省的我还是继续在班捣蛋,比如在桌上涂鸦、作弄其他同学等,变本加厉似的。自从被老师放置在角落后,我就把桌子当成我另一个伴,尽管我握着笔在它身上刺青,它任然不埋怨,继续让我发泄我内心种种心情。

整天在班捣蛋的我,总于有被惩罚的一天了。有一天,我与我的死党把粉擦的粉碎撒在正进入甜梦里的那位同学头上,我们一边撒一边想着他起身后发觉自己被作弄的模样,想到这里不禁嘻嘻大笑。我们就快大功告成的时候,班主任兼纪律主任正好经过我们的班,目睹了整过过程,看来我们已难逃魔掌了,或许这是平常做太多坏事的报应吧!他拉着我们的耳朵,拖我们到走廊去,耳朵都快被他扯烂了!他狠狠地把我们教训一顿,骂得我们头也不敢抬起,不过还是把他的训话当成耳边风。他训话完毕了,还以为就此结束,原来这才是噩梦的开始。我们正要走回班时,他把我们给拉回来,狠狠地瞪着我们,那凶恶的眼神就像要宰人一样,我们只好乖乖地站回原位。他把班上天才,xxx给叫了出来,吩咐她别让我带坏其他学生,转过头来跟我说以后就坐在她的面前,不准擅自换位。虽然我敷衍地答应了,但心里还是不爽,毕竟一个堂堂男子汉需要被一个柔弱的女生管制,真有一点点得丢脸,就好像在我脸上狠狠地刮了几巴掌。我只好自叹霉气。

第二天,我与平时没什么不一样,上学还是妈妈载送,还是走路进课室,只是座位不一样而已。过后,把书包里的东西统统拿出来,放进桌屉里,趁老师还没进班的当儿,抱起书包,好好得睡一会儿。哎呀!谁在刺我背后?我不理睬,但不明物体又再次痛刺我背后,痛得我不禁跳起来,一副凶狠的模样得望去后面,她却反瞪我。

“干嘛刺我背后,我可没得罪你啊!”我说道。

“我喜欢啊,陪我聊天!”她反驳我。

唉,我只好擦擦眼睛,把那双垂下的耳朵给竖起来,扮出一副专心聆听的模样,可是睡意始总没脱离我。她把全部东西统统搬出来说,总之什么垃圾也说,说到老师进班才甘愿停止。堂堂一个读书虫也那么爱讲话,真是让我有点惊吓。由于坐在第二排,我只好睁开眼睛但脑袋却在休息,所以老师所讲的东西完全没藏进脑袋里反而给弹了出去。下课钟声响起,我依然趴在桌子上,并没有参与他们的狂冲向食堂的活动。这时,她又用蓝笔刺在我背后,蓝色的笔墨遗留在我可怜的衣服上,我转过身,狠狠地瞪着她,她竟向我做出一副鬼脸。

“你干嘛不读书?”她突然冒了一句奇异的问题。

“我怕我抢了你第一名的头衔,满意了吗?”

“你整天在班上捣蛋,不觉得很幼稚吗?”

 “幼稚?不觉得喔,很好玩!”

 “幼稚!”

班主任进班就宣布一项极坏的消息,就是两个月后我们必须面对年终考的攻击。其实,这并不是什么坏消息,可是接下来却把我吓了一把冷汗,那就是我们将会面对分班的可能性,这当然是看成绩那方面。成绩欠佳的我自然成了降级的热门人选之一,或许被降级不须面对太大的功课压力,但毕竟呆在甲班也不赖,至少能逼我不至于拿圆圆的鸭蛋。我可不想被降级,被他人瞧不起。这时,她又把蓝笔痛刺在我背后,我自然地转向她,并没有像之前那样摆出凶恶的模样因为心里还被刚才的恐惧给围绕着,迟迟不散。

“害怕了吧?”她摆出一副鬼脸,似乎在嘲笑着我。

“我会害怕?我是谁喔?”我立刻反驳她。

“你是懒惰虫,如果你还不改你懒散的习惯,恐怕被降级已成定局了。”

“我勤力的时候,我自己也觉得很可怕!”

“别在吹牛啦!把你桌上的参考书给拿来。”

“怎么啦?”

“快拿来!不要被降级就乖乖地拿来,不要那么幼稚。”

她竟然又再说我幼稚,真忍无可忍,要不是考虑到降级的事,我真想把她的嘴给撕开。唉,我唯有乖乖地把那叠参考书交到她手上,任由她在参考书涂上荧光笔,我则把书包当枕头继续睡觉。

放学钟声响起,他们习惯性地从教室里出冲,犹如从恐怖的地狱逃出生天以解脱痛苦。她缓缓地走过来,大力地把那叠参考书放在我桌上,吓得正跟周公聊天的我三魂不见七魄。

“喂,不用那么大力吧!心都给你吓得要跳出来了!”

“要你管。我已帮你做了笔记,你回去读那些有涂荧光的,就可以免你降级了。”

“真的?好啦好啦,回去读就是啦!”

“别浪费我一番心意啊!再见!”她还朝我做出个鬼脸。

“你才幼稚。”我暗想着。

一瞬眼,距离与“大战”的时间越来越短了,同学们都忙着备战,根本就没空在班叽叽喳喳,大家都把握每一分,每一秒去扫描参考书。我校有个特别的条规,就是充许我们放一个礼拜以准备迎战,所以每逢大战前一个礼拜,同学们都自闭在家啃书。而我呢?睡觉的时间占了我半天,基本上一天只用两个小时来啃书,还不懂能不能派上用场。我摇摇头,叹了一口大气,自认自己注定被降级了。

叮叮叮……叮叮叮……电话响起了。

“七早八早,谁来打扰本大爷睡觉!”我气愤地说道。

“是我啊,快起身到图书馆陪我温书。”刺我背后的那个她说道。

“才不要!还早,别吵着我睡觉!”

她并没回复我,而是在播放一些古董音乐,私图硬要把我跟我的宝贝床给分离。我很想把电话给挂掉,但如果这样做只是显得我很小气?唯有蹲在床边,祈祷那音乐尽快停止。

“应该清醒了吧?”声音中带有奸笑的她说道。

“是啦,去就去。”我无奈地说。

“那以后,我就播放古董音乐把你给吵醒!哈哈!”

“好的,你喜欢,但要每天要不同的歌曲啊!”

“嗯,那你要陪我去图书馆温书,就那么决定,不准食言。”语气带有一丝严肃的她说道。

“好啦好啦,绝不食言!”

或许这是唯一能让我好好地利用宝贵的时间去啃书吧!

每天一早,她准时地播放着不同的古董音乐,而我蹲在床边听着那烦人的古董音乐,过后咱们就向图书馆一起啃书直到太阳公公被月亮姐姐代班为止。时光如箭,与她呆在图书馆的日子就匆匆忙忙地度过了。

结束那啃书的一个礼拜代表战争的来临,在战争前,我们发誓在遇到困难时决不投降,要把考题杀个片甲不留!我们把考场搞得天昏地暗,老师也头昏脑涨了。一个月后,雨过天晴,战争终于谢幕了,我们又恢复昔日的顽皮,继续在班捣蛋,毫不担忧成绩的出炉因为只想趁大家还在同班的时光里尽情玩闹一番,在我们共同的记忆里写下美好、难忘的回忆。连平时啃书的书虫,刺我背后那个xxx也参与我们的活动,真不可思议!

“喂,你竟会跟我们一起颠,真让人惊讶!”我向她做出个鬼脸。

“大马规则有写明我不能颠吗?”她又向我做出个鬼脸。

“我没说不能。哈哈!”

就这样,你一句我一句直到放学我们俩才甘愿停止斗嘴。

快乐的日子特别短,就像玩滑梯一样,一滑就到地了,真想把那滑下来的过程给拉长,只可惜我没有这种能力。两个星期后,成绩出炉了,个个都挤到贴告板前,零自信心的我很自然地站在后面看着他们的各种表情。有人喜,有人忧,一些人甚至还流泪呢!不知流泪代表开心还是伤心。看了他们那复杂的表情后,我心里产生了一种恐惧感,拒那贴告板千里之外,走回课室,静静地趴在桌上,私图净空那恐惧的心。

“喂,怎么不去看成绩表啊?”

我知道是她,特意不去理睬她,目的是不想面对残酷的事实。

“你真的不想知?”

我摇摇头。

“你过关了。这好消息都不想知?”

“什么?!是真的吗?”我立刻弹跳起来。

“骗你有什么好处喔?是真的。”

“我没发梦吧?!”我刮自己两巴,果然不是在发梦。

“你很幼稚。”

或许是太高兴了,我冲动地走上前紧紧拥抱着她。

“你在做什么……”她害羞地说。

“这是感谢之抱,谢谢你。”我真心地说。

“哦,不客气……你可以放开手吗?你抱得太紧了,我喘不过气来。”

“对不起……”我松开手,尴尬地笑。

今天的我们,不再像昔日的我们,不再吵吵闹闹了,反而是在快乐的气氛下谈天说地。

第二天,她缺席了。是我昨天抱得太紧导致到她呼吸不顺畅还是她生病了?喜爱胡思乱想的我脑袋里又弹出很多千奇百怪的问号。由于好奇性过于强大,放学后,就化作为千里马,以最快的速度奔驰到她家门口。到她家门口后,我却呆呆地站在那儿,看着那门铃,心里暗想,到底要不要按?万一她问我为什么过来,那我该怎样回答?我处身在太阳底下,犹如在烘烤里那么闷热,热得像热窝上的蚂蚁,只好硬着脸皮按门铃。可是,就是没人出来,好像没人在家,只好打消那念头。这时,有个人走过来,

“你找住这里的人吗?他们好像要移民到澳洲,现在应该去着机场。”

我目瞪口呆了。她根本没在我面前提过她要移民的事,怎么突然会这样?我跑到的士站,搭上的士,命令司机尽快飞奔向机场,司机没反抗,就猛踩门油。我心里一直在责怪她,为什么连离开也不跟我说一声?我们俩所写下的回忆就像播放影片,一幕幕地播在大荧幕上,眼泪不停地在眼眶里打滚,最后还是不停使唤得流了出来,轻轻地滑过脸颊,留下的只是泪痕。人生就像泪水,所有经历过的事就像泪水滑过脸颊,而回忆就像泪痕。

到了机场,我付钱后,就跑进机场,盲目地向四周围跑,希望能找到她。我心里不断暗求,让我能再见她最后一面。我诚恳地求上帝,拖延她上机的时间,我有好多话想对她说。

“大笨蛋,跑来干嘛?”熟悉的声音从我背后传来。

我回头一望,果然是她。她缓缓地走过来,说,

“你找我有事吗?”

“真是的!怎么你离开都不跟我说一声?你知道我很担心你吗?我还以为……

我的话给她打断了。

她吻了我,我们相吻了……那一吻仿佛有一种超神奇的力量,慢慢地流进我体里,滋润我那因她而枯萎的心,身体不知不觉飘浮了起来,就像站在没有地心引力的地面上。

“请不要忘记我……”她语气带有害羞兼哭泣得说道。

“我不会忘记,我会等你回来得一天…….”我笑着说但还是难以掩盖那不舍得心情。

她再献上拥抱,我们紧紧相拥,这或许是再见之抱、最后之抱,我们并不清楚,只珍惜现在剩余那相处的时间…….

临走前,她向我挥挥手以示再见,我也挥挥手,用唇语说,“一路顺风”,她点点头,也用唇语说,“要好好保重”。我也点点头,她就这样从我眼前慢慢地消失了。

人生没有不散的宴席,人总要离别。但真正面临离别时,却又无法做到挥一挥衣袖,转身离开那么洒脱。在那一刻,人性的脆弱显露无遗。眼泪再次崩溃,不舍的泪水,又再次从眼眶里掉出,轻轻滑过脸颊;心里那种无法以墨笔形容那不舍、思念的心情,就像大浪汹涌奔泻朝我方向冲过来,使我难以抵挡。如果这世界上有小叮当的身影,我一定向它借时光机,把时间再倒流一次,再次夺回我们在一起的时光……

我不会抹掉我们共同写下的美好回忆,把那回忆永远放置在心里的最深处,不让那回忆因随着时间的流逝而慢慢消失在我人生里。我不会忘记曾经有个女生用蓝笔刺我背后,把我可怜的衣服留下蓝笔的笔墨、帮我做笔记,消除我被降级的烦恼、每天吵着要我陪她聊天,更不会忘记在机场道别时的那深情的一吻……

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Dissapointed. :'(

Sky is raining now. Weather reflects my mood.

I didn't absent school today. Arrived school and keep busy to chat with teachers to know how about my paper. Gosh! All drop, no subjects achieve my target. Teachers said, made this as a painful lesson, keep going. Ya, I'm know it. I'm trying to do it. I ask my friends also, they say,''Papers are difficult, many people also score low marks'', ''You're hardworking but you need pay more effort on it.'' Lol. I know almost people score low marks but not lower than me, sometimes their ''low marks'' really shocked. I sighed.

I want play football so I attend school. This is the main reason that I can't deny it. Haha..

After that, I'm fatigued and bored in class. Play UNO and sleep in the class when Biology period. However, sad mood never decided to leave me alone. I'm keep thinking about my score, how I explain to my mum when she asked me. I not dare to think it deeply. I sighed again.

Ya.. You appeared on my mind. Your advice appeared on my mind. I'm keep scanning what you talk with me that day. I'm still remember. You cheered me again although you not at my side. Thanks you. Because of you, I'm stand up bravely in the injury condition. I started pay more and more effort as possible as I can. I don't want let you feel disappointed again. Don't worry, I still can fight even I lose this match. Failure is a dirty word but I'm sure everyone try this bitter taste. Once you fail, not represent every times you also fail. :)

Hopefully, you and I study hard together. =)



I MISS YOU <3


Wednesday, November 2, 2011

First post of my blog

A new post, a new start.
People always say, ''Good start, good ending.'' Hope it become true in my life. :)

Let travel time machine back to yesterday.
Absent school again, how lazy I am? School life really bored except when the day has PJ period. Time pass and passed. I phoned my friend bravely because I really can't face my terrible, horror, ugly marks. I shocked when my friend told me the true! OMG! 45marks for my BM?! The target that I set was B. My heart become heavily just like a stone. Extremely moody. :'(

I online and find her for chat. I want her consolation. Emergency. We chat and chat. Suddenly, she say she disappointed with me and type a lot encourage sentence. I can also use a word to describe it, AMAZING! Her sentences really nearly made me tears. I was touched and I promise her won't make her disappointed with me again. Hopefully this was the first time and the last time. :)

Sky started rain. I realize that I fall more deeply on you. Don't ask me why, even I also can't find out the answer. I confessed I'm angry with her before because jealous. I have no confidence on this such thing. Zero confidence in love. And other reasons, too many boys flirt her. If compare with those boys, I think my ranking is under them. I don't have a handsome face, no money, not expect in socialize, not good in my result. However, I won't give up. Hunger in love is a very powerful force. :)

Saw an accident just now. Car crashed on a motorcycle but no man injury or dead. WHAT THE FUCK! Not excited at all. Those man fight and argued almost 2hours under a hot weather. What a crazy gang argued on the street. HAHA!

Ok. I better stop here. :)





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